Salvation at Damnation: Auto-ethnographic reflections of an autistic festival goer through Critical Autism Studies Lens

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Metal music has long been associated with countercultural resistance and the challenging of dominant ideologies. From its working-class origins in Birmingham’s industrial backstreets to acts such as Zeus in Cuba or Al-Namrood (النمرود) in Saudi Arabia, metal has emerged as a global form of cultural dissent. I contend that its emphasis on authenticity, individualization and acceptance of difference aligns closely with principles of the neurodiversity paradigm, creating potential for metal spaces to be more neuro-affirming spaces than other spaces. While metal music spaces are often perceived as inclusive and accepting, they would typically be regarded as inaccessible when critiqued from good autism practice perspective. Yet autistic scholars have described deep enjoyment and meaningful participation in live metal events despite the potential sensory and emotional costs. This tension raises important questions about access, belonging and the assumptions underpinning notions of ‘autism-friendly’ spaces. Using a critical autism studies and emanciparticipatory approach, this article presents an autoethnographic exploration of autistic engagement with metal music and culture, focusing on my experiences attending Damnation Festival. Findings highlight the centrality of detailed communication, the prevalence of acceptance and non-judgemental attitudes among organizers and community members, and the importance of physical accessibility for all participants. The study contributes to the emerging work on neurodivergent experiences of metal music, proposing that neuro-affirming practices within the scene may hold broader relevance for inclusive practice.

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